The End of an Era, rebirth of the new ME.


Saturday, September 29, 2012

As many of you have noticed, I have officially closed down my 4yr-old blog "ilovetinnie". Finally, after so many attempts I finally did it.

I started blogging just for the sake of simply letting myself want to write regularly, to have something for me-- to document my life freely and to share it to the world. Because I believe "If I don't write to empty my mind, I go mad." - Lord Byron 

but then I didn't expect the support and love from my lovely readers. But lately, I think it's all part and parcel of changes. I needed to make a change.  As silly as it may sound, but I do think I have grown up a little. Maybe?

Ofcourse by the grace of God I am a changed person now. I have decided to change myself in some ways. And in order for me to live the new "me", I have to start out fresh completely. A new chapter of life has to begin, new experiences has to be written,  has to be documented. and I needed a clean and new blog to start doing so. I would definitely miss my old blog though.

I had everything in there-- My life, my heartbreaks, my joys and whatnot. Though I know I have to comprehend that at some point in life, goodbyes has to be made. That old me is no longer living in Me. I can honestly say that the new Me is obviously happier, has a stronger faith in God, healthier relationship with everyone.

Have you ever asked yourself lately-- have you been happy? Have you changed over the years?

I remember the retreat we had just recently in Baguio and during the session, everyone has to share their stories about the things that could make us sad or happy. I could not fathom whether or not I could really measure happiness. Have I really been happy? I know happy when I see it, much more when I feel it. So I sat there feeling genuinely sure of what I am going to share, listening to my every heartbeat as it travels up through my insides making me more nervous but more of excited-- Yes, I have never been so happy in my life. and Yes I am the luckiest girl in the world and I will say that without a doubt. 

For the first time in my life I was so sure of what causes my happiness and so I have shared it with them. I told them I am happy because finally I am inlove with someone who's more inlove with me but moreso, I am happy because I am not bitter anymore. I have freed myself from all the bitterness and I did it all by myself.

Looking back, I realized that the saying "Time heals everything" isn't true, it's a fallacy. You can only move on from someone when you have finally decided to better yourself. When you have made yourself complete in God, in self love and when you have finally decided to be happy. You can spend all your time and waste your years trying to move on from someone, but that won't help.. believe me. Freeing from bitterness will only occur when you have finally realize that it's time for you to be happy. I really can't grasp the idea on how I could fully explain this to everyone, but I do hope you get the gist of it.

So anyway as I was saying, the New me is a happy girl. No more losing of sleep for nonsense thoughts. I am growing way too fast and I need to live my life to the fullest. So welcome me to my new blog. Follow me on this new chapter of life. Cheers! x

Bookworm



Books, I'm still working on this book (baby proof) lately. Yes, because of my busy sched I couldn't even afford to finish any book these days.

I am actually discerning whether or not to finish this book anymore since I'm not liking it. But my friend Jess told me to finish it before I get disappointed.

So yeah maybe I'll try to give it a shot.

I love books. Don't you love books? I think reading books could help you become a great writer, it'll help you expand your vocabulary and such. So I suggest you guys to read more books to improve your crafts.

My fave hang-out lounge actually is our school library. That's why I am here now while blogging this. haha


But anyways,

let me share you my book case now. I bought it a couple of months ago and I so admire it! it's super chic and shabby. I love anything floral and polka dots. :)


By the way, speaking of writing and books.
Thank you beautifullyrooted for featuring my guest post. Means a lot to me. I know it wasn't really that easy to be featured on your site but I am very grateful for the chance. I hope to be an official contributor for beautifully rooted. Love & Blessings! xxx




Movie Fridays! :)


Starting today, I will make a blog entry about movie reviews every Friday. Simply because I love movies and I am damn crazy about them. I guess, it has always been my passion to appreciate great films and to really admire them. So tonight, I'm gunna share y'all my fave movies recently. :)


WAITRESS

This movie is superb!! had me craving for some home made pies throughout the whole movie. I love the concept, the 1960's era style, southern girl's charm and a bitter sweet comedy-drama life concept. Jenna (Keri Russell), is a small town waitress at Joe's Pie diner, married to her bossy husband Earl, and got pregnant with his baby (accidentally) Because according to her, Earl just got her so drunk that night and whenever she's drunk, she apparently do something really stupid-- like sleeping with his husband, Earl. haha

The movie was quite funny and she's crazy about making pies. As a child, Jenna baked pies like the Marshmallow Mermaid Pie (which I will try to bake this week). Every pie she creates was only based on her emotions and whatnot and then add to it some weird fancy names such as Fallin' in Love Chocolate Mousse Pie, I don't want Earl's baby Pie, and I Hate My Husband Pie, yada yada!

I suggest you guys to watch this movie and try not to like it. :)


THE HELP

Now this movie called "The help", had me craving for minny's chocolate pie and chicken! Yes it takes only pies for me to like movies. Kidding! I can honestly say that I have watched this film for more than 10x already and I know every lines like the back of my hand. I love love love this movie to itsy bitsy pieces and I am damn crazy about the pictures, the concept, the 60's era style, the vintage houses, the southern foodies and minny's chocolate pie! If you have watched this movie already then you'll know now what I'm talking about here. The famous 2 slice hilly! :))

The film is about this young white girl skeeter (Emma Stone) who decided to write a book about racism and the colored situation. Aibileen was the first one to share her story.

The story itself was very touching with a twist of comedy and all that fizzle. I love it! I would definitely recommend this movie to everyone. You'll get hooked! I promise.

I guess, my type of movie has to have a sort of passion for food and has to be a very vintage type of movie.

"God's letter to women"


Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Let me share you this letter that moved me to tears.

GOD'S LETTER TO WOMEN

"When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him from the dust of the Earth and breathed life into his nostrils.

But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man because your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you. Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity. From one bone I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects man’s life.

I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him, as you are meant to do. Around this one bone I shaped you. I modeled you. I created you perfectly and beautifully.

Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life.

The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. Support man as the rib cage supports the body. You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to his side.

You are my perfect angel. 
You are my beautiful little girl. 
You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence, 
and my eyes fill when I see the virtue in your heart. 
Your eyes: don’t change them.
Your lips: how lovely when they part in prayer.
Your nose so perfect in form, your hands so gentle to touch.

I’ve caressed your face in your deepest sleep; I’ve held your heart close to mine.
Of all that lives and breathes, you are the most like me.

Adam walked with me in the cool of the day and yet he was lonely.
He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me.
So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me, 
I fashioned in you: my holiness, my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and support. 
 You are special because you are the extension of me.

Man represents my image, woman - my emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God.

So man: treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile. 
In hurting her, you hurt me. What you do to her, you do to me. 
In crushing her, you only damage your own heart, 
the heart of your Father and the heart of her Father.

Woman, support man. In humility, show him the power of emotion I have given you.
 In gentle quietness show your strength. 
In love, show him that you are the rib that protects his inner self."

I was doing a women empowerment article when I came across this letter, I read it and I immediately cried. This moved me to tears and I can't explain how overwhelmed and lucky I am that God has chosen me to live in this earth. That God actually planned, loved and wanted me. He created us in His very own image, to act in His likeness. and I know I have said it quite a few times before but I still feel unworthy of His love. I am still nothing but human, I make mistakes, everyday I wake up feeling dead in the ground. But thankfully God has always been there to guide me and to support me. To teach me the way.  He is our loving God and His patience is everlasting so we don't have to be perfect at all times.

Now, all I'm asking God is not to be perfect.. cause I know that would be impossible. All I'm asking for is for Him to examine my heart and point out every little detail that could break His heart then take it all away from me. I just want to be pure. I want Him to make me the woman He wanted me to become. To see myself through His loving and forgiving eyes, to help me walk in each day rooted in truth and praises only His name. To follow His steps and seek only Him. To be worthy of my life. To be a good girlfriend to my boyfriend, a good daughter to my parents. I just simply want myself to be a blessing to others and I cannot do that alone without the grace of God. So help me Lord.

Trina x

It's been ages, time has flown by as usual.


Tuesday, September 25, 2012


"There are some days when I think I'm going to die from an overdose of satisfaction." - Salvador Dali.

Hi, I'm sorry for the lack of post. I've been so busy with school. It's been eating up all my time that I never really had some of my "me time" in the bathroom as I used to before. Although, I am not complaining, busy days were blessings from up above. Yeah I believe that.

I felt my heart sink a little as I remembered I haven't been in the church for the past two weeks. I'm the type of person who sometimes attend the church atleast 4x a week, and I can't seem to wrap my head around the idea that I am forgetting, not literally forgetting but I just can't imagine how I could be so pre-occupied that I don't even get the chance to visit the church. You know that kind of feeling that makes you cringe whenever you stopped dead on your track and suddenly remembered that it's Sunday and yet you have a shoot? What do you do? Nothing.. you can just suck it all up and feel more and more guilty as the days passed by.. Although I always talk to God, nobody can take that away from me. I always talk to Him whenever I can... when I'm going to school,when I am quiet, even when I'm doing something. I always talk to Him and I know He's always there for me to listen. Yet, I know it will never be enough.

I know though that God has been working in my life lately, that even though I am stuffed to the brim and couldn't even manage my time because of my busy sched I know He's been planning something great for my growth and His glory. I am so glad for every opportunity that has come my way lately, I am thankful for the play, for my swimming game, for being the Features Editor of the school newspaper, for our magazine, for the new challenges and experiences, and for every tinnie tiny bits of projects in school and lots of happenings in my life right now.

It does feel like I'm a changed person though, that I've conquered a significant phase in my life and I am doing great at it, gloriously hanging eventhough I am on the verge of giving up. But then I know there's more to come, way way more to come my way. That's why I'm asking God to give me more patience, to give me the heart to use the gifts that He has blessed me with to bless others. To forgive me and to help me manage my time carefully and to not lose the spunk and my spirit that keeps me going.

Anyways, here's whats mostly keepin me busy.

Our school play. called "Fate's Line" by Debbie Ann Tan

 I will be playing here as Fate Huang.. :)

Find out more about it by liking our page: Ad Infinitum Productions.

Love & Blessings!
Trina x

China Town!


Monday, September 3, 2012


I went to China town for the first time after 22 years of my life. Finally! hahaha

I really had fun to be honest.. although it was really tiring! but we did have fun. The lucky mall was amazeball and it's too high end. We ate at Max's.. though I was really craving for some authentic dishes. But anyhow, maybe next time.. I went there with my other classmates chloe, abby, and paj. We went there to buy my Chinese costume for our school play and I am telling you! I loooove my costume. It was a dream for me to dress-up like a Chinese girl that I am (I have a chinese blood btw, chi-la) Anyways, you should watch our play to see my gorgeous dress! it's a must. :p

And while frolicking around China town we saw this little Yellow Jambhala and it caught my attention.

 The yellow jambhala is a god of wealth in Tibetan Buddhism. According to this site.

"Jambhala is a protector of the dharma. He helps people by eliminated poverty so that they may practice the Dharma. When a person becomes rich, he is more able to be unselfish and generous. If you are having financial difficulties, call upon his name, and he will come and help you. Worshipping or practicing Jambhala can also help you to get rid of the insecurity of financial worries so that you can focus on practicing the Dharma. More importantly, his practice helps you attain spiritual wealth, eliminate greed and become a better person." How interesting right?

So I tried it. :) I am not actually a believer of anything like this but just to try it out, I immediately asked "ate" the sales girl how to work this thing. So she said, we just have to pour water on the yellow jambhala for 6x and say the mantra and then wish while tossing a coin inside the huge bowl of water. And so we did.

But why do the yellow jambhala likes the water poured on his head?

"Someone once explained to me that when Devadatta, the jealous cousin of Shakyamuni Buddha threw rocks at the Buddha, the Jambhalas were around and the rocks hit White and Yellow Jambhalas on their heads and hit Black Jambhala on the stomach. This is why White and Yellow Jambhalas feel bliss when water offering is poured on their heads. This eases their pain. For the same reason for Black Jambhala, water should be poured onto his stomach." 

Although the yellow jambhala is a god of wealth, I didn't wish about wealth though. haha Yeah I know. I suck. But oh welps. I just enjoyed the perks of visiting China town! Experiencing their culture and just frolicking around the place, it really changes your view in life.. it really fascinates me though how these chinese are so hook with different charms and stuff. I don't have anything against it, though for me believing in  something like this is more like denying your faith towards God, our loving Father and savior.

But nonetheless, I'm planning to visit again with my boyfriend-- hopefully soon. In hopes, I can finally get a chance to buy myself some fortune cookies! cause apparently you have to atleast request it for 2-3 days before you can get some. Sad. I was expecting for some ready ones though. lol

Sometimes you gotta stop and smell the roses


Sunday, September 2, 2012


A freshly picked flowers from the outside...

I woke up with this beautiful sight, such a very rare view inside the house. My daddy probably picked it up from our small landscape outside home and placed it over the empty bottle of Arizona. How creative? very chic.

Reminds me of how beautiful days can be.
How the love of God blooms in each and one of us for each passing days. We all have this tendency to be so busy with our everyday lives that we sometimes forget to stop, be still, and appreciate the life that God has given us. To thank Him for having the chance to live again for one more day and to be healthy as ever.

We are so lucky.

Lucky to have an amazing God who sacrificed His own son, Jesus for our salvation.

I have attended the Victory earlier and I was again reminded of God's love for us. I was almost teary when I prayed to Him all my worries.. and troubles of my heart. I told Him all the works I have yet fulfilled, I told Him that I am so tired of everything. Tired of being busy with school and all that. But it's almost as if God has spoken to me and told me that I can do it. If God have put me through it, He knows I can get through it. Yes by His grace, I know I can.

I guess, I just gotta have faith and admit that I gotta put all my trust in Him and let Him work in my life. That I should just take my hands off things and just embrace/accept everything He has prepared for me.. to accept what I really deserve in life and not what my heart desires. For He knows what's best for me, He knows His plans for me, for my life, His plans to prosper me, and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future. His sweet promises, these what keeps me still.

And yet as a human. I am weak. Everyday, I still ask the Lord am I deserving of this life? of this chance? am I deserving to live? to have an amazing family who would always love and support me? to have a loving and faithful boyfriend? to have been blessed with true friends? blessed to have so many amazing talents? am I deserving Lord that you know my name? that Jesus sacrificed His own life for me? am I deserving of your blessings? your love? your grace? and yet, who am I to question God anyway?

despite my sins, God would still wanna pursue me everyday. Pursue us.. and that's the kind of love I would always be thankful for. That through my busy days, God will always be there to remind me, to poke me and to say Hey, I am here-- you can rest all your troubles with me. Surrender everything to me and I will give you peace.

God is so amazing.. it takes awareness and strong faith to find Him in our everyday lives. Just seek him deeply within your heart and surrender yourself wholeheartedly.. and you will find Him. God will always be there.. Remember He knows your name, even the numbers of your hair, He knows each and every one of us.. eventhough God has been listening to billions of other prayers, watching over billions of people from all around the world. But I can guarantee you that He would never ever forget us, forget you and me.

My dear friends, God is an amazing God. We just sometimes gotta stop and thank Him for He has always been with us. Working in our lives. Giving us his gracious blessings even if we don't really deserve it.. because He is a generous God and a loving father.

All the praise should be lifted upon Him so He will shower us with more blessings, and grace. Let us all draw near to him. By his side, where we could all be safe.

Love & Blessings! x
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